The Gift

When I was having a rough patch in my life, god has given me someone amazing to help me went through it. The gift was temporary but I cheerish every moments given. Because of you, I was smiling again. I myself never knew that in such short time, someone who was a stranger at first can suddenly mean something to me. I thank god for giving me the chance to know you and to feel the happiness. I learned a lot from what we have. The good and the bad. The love and the pain. Yes it was temporary. But yet, I have nothing to regret because I savor all the time and the things we do. Nothing would make me happier if it last longer. But if this is what fated for me, I'll try to take it. Thank you Allah and thank you dear for giving me something so beautiful to remember.

Love,
S

Study Week

If you ask me what I think about study week, my answer would be this one word. Horror! I have to take 5 papers this semester so I have been studying my eyeballs off this past few weeks. Skipping meals has become a norm and I keep on stuffing my bladder with more and more coffee every single day to keep my eyes awake. Oh how I really miss sleeping all day. Sigh. I have done 2 papers so I still have 3 more to go. I can't wait for the exams to be over and I keep telling my friend that I would definitely do a chicken dance after the last paper. Haha. Ok cut the long crap. Guys, wish me luck okay. I need it so bad!

Love,
S

Mom you are my number one!

I guess this is the second time I posted song lyrics on my blog. I am not a fan of Maher Zain's songs before but this one really touched my heart that I cried listening to it. It is a song for a mother. Oh how I miss my mom. I am so busy and it has been more than a month since I last went home ):

Anyway, I'm sorry I don't know how to attach the video but here's the lyrics. So beautiful.

NUMBER ONE FOR ME by Maher Zain.

I was a foolish little child

Crazy things I used to do
And all the pain I put you through
Mama now I’m here for you
For all the times I made you cry
The days I told you lies
Now it’s time for you to rise
For all the things you sacrificed

Chorus:
Oh, if I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone
I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mum I’m all grown up now

It’s a brand new day
I’d like to put a smile on your face every day
Mum I’m all grown up now
And it’s not too late
I’d like to put a smile on your face every day

And now I finally understand
Your famous line
About the day I’d face in time
‘Cause now I’ve got a child of mine
And even though I was so bad
I’ve learned so much from you
Now I’m trying to do it too
Love my kid the way you do

CHORUS

You know you are the number one for me (x3)
Oh, oh, number one for me
There’s no one in this world that can take your place
Oh, I’m sorry for ever taking you for granted, ooh
I will use every chance I get
To make you smile, whenever I’m around you
Now I will try to love you like you love me
Only God knows how much you mean to me

CHORUS

You know you are the number one for me (x3)

Oh, oh, number one for me

I was a foolish little child
Crazy things I used to do
And all the pain I put you through
Mama now I’m here for you
For all the times I made you cry
The days I told you lies
Now it’s time for you to rise
For all the things you sacrificed

Chorus:
Oh, if I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone
I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mum I’m all grown up now

It’s a brand new day
I’d like to put a smile on your face every day
Mum I’m all grown up now
And it’s not too late
I’d like to put a smile on your face every day

And now I finally understand
Your famous line
About the day I’d face in time
‘Cause now I’ve got a child of mine
And even though I was so bad
I’ve learned so much from you
Now I’m trying to do it too
Love my kid the way you do

CHORUS

You know you are the number one for me (x3)
Oh, oh, number one for me
There’s no one in this world that can take your place
Oh, I’m sorry for ever taking you for granted, ooh
I will use every chance I get
To make you smile, whenever I’m around you
Now I will try to love you like you love me
Only God knows how much you mean to me

CHORUS

You know you are the number one for me (x3)

Oh, oh, number one for me

Love,

S

Tests and Trust

The last time I wrote was last year. That was way too long, no? I’m not going to give any excuses though. The thing is I didn’t write to please the crowd. So I am going to write whenever I had the chance and when I feel like it, okay? Cheers :D

In the last few months when I was in hiatus, so many things happened. Some of them were good, but some of them were unbearable. I’ve been going through some hard times, and that was one of the reason why I didn’t write here. The blog is public and I chose not to spread the private story of my life to the world. So as a substitute, I’ve been really close with my diary these days. I can just spill everything without having to ponder about what to write and what not to write. But that doesn’t mean I am going to shut my blog down. The blog keeps my 3 years memories and will still be counting.

Anyway, this year has been hard for me. God tested me in so many ways I couldn’t even recall when was the last time I had a good time. During those times, there were my brother’s wedding, a vacation with my family, and so many things went around. I might looked happy outside, ok, I do feel happy here and then, but at the same time, deep inside, there were always a lump in my throat, sadness in my heart.

During those hard times, I realize that one of the way to be at ease is by turning to Him. I am not a good person and I admit that sometimes I slightly forget about Him. But the hard times I’m facing made me realize that no matter what happen, good or bad, there’s only Him that will always be by my side. I keep reminding myself that Allah will always be available, and His guidance will help me to endure hardship, and make sufferings bearable.

I am still having a hard time now so I keep praying to Him to show me the best way. I talked to so many people, my family and my friends, seeking for their advice and opinions. But deep inside, I know that things happen only when god allows it so at the end of the day, I will turn to Him, ask for His guidance.

I do realize that my pain is nothing compared to other people. Well, at least I’m not facing hunger or death. I am in good health and I have my family and my friends. So I will try as much as possible to be positive. I am still young, and if god wills it, I still have a long road ahead. I do realize that there will be ups and down, thick and thin along the way, so I hope I will be one strong girl to face it. InsyaAllah.

Love,
S

Help me decide

A friend of mine gave me these last two weeks. I was so excited because besides food, books are what I love most!. Unfortunately, I had to resist the temptations since the assignments are piling up last few weeks and I was super busy. Now that I am free, I am going to read one of them. So help me choose. Which one to read first?


"Miss a meal if you have to, but don't miss a book!"
-Jim Rohn-

Love,
S

Home sweet home

I'm at home now and it feels sooo good ! :D

The pain of love

'Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead'
- Adele (Someone like you)

Love,
S