Yes I read

I love books. I really do and here are my new books! I am so excited. Hehe.









I chose Barbara Taylor Bradford Being Elizabeth to read first. Hope it will be a fun read. OK, going to start reading now. Bye!.

Love,
S

Picture Post

I am having my I-dont-know-what-to-write-about-moment so let the picture do the talking this time. Here are some of the picture when I was in KL.







Love,
s

Skinny girl I am not!

Almost everyone is saying that I’ve gained weight. My mom, bf, cousins, friends, and even my roommate’s classmates?. Oh come on, is it really that obvious?? Pfft. It is true by the way. *cries blood*

I’ve gain two or three (or maybe four kilos?) in two month. Oh my god, this is giving me pressure. It’s not being fat that keeps my mind so “serabut” but thinking about how to eliminate it. I mean, I know I have to stop it somehow, I cannot just let the kgs increase right?. I have to take care of my body, keep it healthy and more important, I don’t want to change my whole wardrobe with one size bigger clothes!.

Ok, cutting story short, here are the options:

1. Jog? NO, I won’t do something that tortures me to death.
2. Stop eating all the fatty yummy food? BIG NO!.
3. Exercise? I don’t know. *slaps forehead*

Definitely not working. Sigh.

The major problem is that I am having this huge appetite, and with this bulging belly, flabby hips and arms, I think I will hit the ground as soon as I start running or jogging because my badan is so berat you know.

BF suggests skipping, which I think kind of brilliant. I do went to Tesco the other day to look for skipping rope but they only have it for children, with bells and very bright pink colour. I am not going to embarrassed myself just to lose some weight.

I went to Queensbay today, looking for it, again and I am lucky this time.*grin*

My goal is to do it for like 50 to 100 times a day. I heard that it is good to firm the thigh. Meanwhile, I will do sit up to flatten my tummy. Both this will cause an agonising pain (exaggerating here, haha) for me but still, I will do it because I would really like to be fit and not to forget, healthy.




Love,
S

Being away is not cool ok

I have a twin and I find it rather rude to have already 14 posts but not a single one about her (my sister). The thing is that I usually write about what happens in my daily life and she is not with me all this while since she is studying in Cairo, doing Medical degree. Yeah, she is more genius than me. But not always. Haha.

Anyway, what makes me feels like writing about her today is because I talked to her yesterday and she told me something that should be our secret. Okay, enough of that. I’d rather not talk about it. It’s a secret right?

She hasn’t come back for one and a half year now since she has failed a paper during last semester so she needs to study harder and postponed her plan on going back. I miss her so much. She is my playmate since we were babies and we used to go to the same school since kindergarten. We start to go on a different way after SPM, since she chooses medical studies which I have not even a tiny interest to it.

After talking to her yesterday, it made me realises about how we used to be so close. I mean, we do have our little arguments over small things but at the end of the day, we turn to each other when we have problems or there is a secret to tell. But now since we are living million miles away, in a different country and in two different time zones, things are not the same . Oh god this is hard. Why do tears needs to come at this time?! I’m just writing here. Get away from me; I don’t want to be a crybaby! Sigh.

By the way, what struck me as interesting is that no matter how far you go or how angry you get, you can never forget or run away from someone you have blood relations with. “Blood is thicker than water”. I couldn’t agree more. Like in my case, not being with my sister for nearly two years never change my love towards her. And sis, if you are reading this, I will always be beside you. No matter what your decision is, always think about our family first. And oh, one more thing, NO more fail paper ok, because we can’t tolerate another year waiting for you to come back!.

Future doc,insyaallah

Sissy (brown tudung) and czarin.

Love,
S

Miss mommy!

I reached Penang yesterday and since then, I am so stressed because the internet connection is so slow!. I stay at the hostel and my new room for this semester is at the ground floor, surrounded by jungle of concrete buildings. The only way I could connect to the world is by using my broadband but now the there’s hardly any reception here and even to browse Yahoo needs 5 minutes?! I am really losing my patience now. Arghh!

Internet oh internet, please fix yourself if you don’t mind? Please please please.. *angel face*

Anyway, the purpose of me writing this time is because I can’t stop thinking about my mom. She went through a surgery yesterday, a minor one as I said in my previous post, but still I’m awfully worried about her. She is fine now (Alhamdulillah); but not being with her at this time really makes me sad and crappy and OMG I miss her like crazy!. I want to take care of her but my college will not tolerate my absence anymore and I don’t want to be expelled. So, the most I could do is just call her like 5 times a day (with watery eyes) to check on her. I really wish I could talk to her every seconds but she needs to rest, I know. Sigh. Oh mom I really miss you.

Get well soon mom, I LOVE YOU gazillions much!.

Love,
S

Here comes the New Year

31st December 5.27 pm. Just a few hours before New Year, 2010.

So much has happened this year. Newborns, weddings and funerals. OMG how I miss my grandmother. She has left us for four month already. My brother has been married for nearly five months and we have baby Aisha for 8 months now. So many things have changed, in just a year. It is like a blink of an eye.

We can never have everything that is perfect, in fact, every mistake that we’ve made taught us about life. I do lose my patience, screaming, and cries when I make any mistakes or if something doesn’t seem right. But then I realises that that is a process of learning, a part of life.

This year has been wonderfully imperfect and amazingly perfect.

Anyway, when I was 19, I couldn't wait to turn 20. Now the thought of turning another year older (20) is just depressing. Time passes so quickly. It scares me thinking that someday, a few years from now, I will grow older and start to have wrinkles on my face.

Thinking on bright side, turning 20, I really hope that I will be a better person, more matured, more patience (I really lack on this one, sigh), more responsible and more hardworking (on everything, I mean).

May 2010 be a better year for me. I will try to do my best in everything. Alhamdulillah, I am so thankful God has given me the chance to live this life and I hope my family and I will have the longevity. May we be blessed with good health and happiness.

I took this chance to wish everyone a Happy New Year.


Love,
S

Quick update

Still in KL.

Couldn't decide when to go back.

Tonight or tomorrow?

Anyway, having fun this past few days with cousins and bf. Daily routine; Went back home at 3 a.m, sleep at 5 a.m, wake up at 1 p.m. We did this everyday. Teruk kan? *slaps face*

Will post the picture later.

Miss mom so much!

Heading to Zara One Utama. Bye!

Love,
S