Current State

Hi darlings..

It's been a while huh? 

The purpose of me writing here this time is just to leave a mark here about what is going on with my life now. 

Studies.

I am now one semester away from getting my Bachelor of Education. Finishing my studies is my priority now. So far I have no plans on furthering my studies. I just can't wait to start working. Maybe after a few years working, then only I would think about getting my master and whatnot.

Family.

Everyone is fine. Mom n dad are in a good shape. Baby brothers are doing okay and my baby sis is now running an online business. I could say her leisure business is now getting bigger so I pray for her success juggling studies n work at the same time. Visit her Instagram page SS_wardrobe. May Allah bless my family and grants us happiness, health n wealth. 

Love.

I could say there's bee a hell lot of ups and downs all this while. But we keep on learning to know each other and trying to endure everything. Everything that happen motivates us and change us to be better for each other. I learned so many things and I realize that I change a lot. I used to be bossy and a freak. But now i know that i could not expect everything to be as per planned. I have to chill myself more and enjoy the ride. 

Before I go on my hiatus again, I just hope that Allah SWT leads me a straight and smooth path for me in my life. I am now 23 so I am no longer a little girl. I want to make full use of life now so may everything goes easy on me. In Sya Allah.

Love,

SS

2012

Hi. It's been a while..

2012 is ending very soon so i thought i should write something before the year ends. The purpose of me writing here tonight is because i want to reminisce all the memories of this year and i am going to move on to the upcoming 2013.

This year has taught me so many things from family matters, my students life, friendships, working and also to the matter of love.

Family is everything for me and i bet its the same for everyone in this world. I am blessed i still have my family up to this day. My parents are my strength to live up in this world and they have been wonderful ever since i was born. I can't deny the fact that i sometimes get scolded by them and there were a little arguments every now and then with the siblings but i know that is part and parcel in any  family. I am the eldest in the family so i think i have the responsibility to lead my baby sister and brothers to become a more better person. Seeing them grew up with different behavior and temperaments has taught me a lot. I have done what i'm capable of and i will try my best to be a better sister for them in the future.

Moving on to my love affairs. Early 2012 has been kind of hard for me because my 6 years relationship has finally over. Along the years, we have went through so many ups and downs and i learned so much from it. It has been great so i don't know what went wrong. Its not me and neither its him. I keep reminding myself that everything happen for a reason and i believe god has planned out something for me. This happens for more than a year now and i didn't planned on exposing about it here ever since but then the past is past and i'm totally over it now. Deep inside, i never doubted that i had been with a wonderful person and i thanked Allah for that. It didn't work, but i learned so much.

Done with sad moments, i also had my fair share of happiness, Alhamdulillah. I was happy doing my practical as a teacher, made new friends and experiences, went on a few holidays with my families, and i also met someone that is important for me now. There's a lot more joyous moments that happened but it would be ridiculous to list all of that here. Besides, i'm afraid you will end up sleeping reading that. Haha.

Anyway, I haven't posted up any pictures for quite some times huh?. So here are some of the moments captured in 2012.

I just hope that 2013 will be a better year for me. I have my own aims and resolutions for the year and may Allah SWT grant all of them, In Sya Allah. HAPPY NEW YEAR to all my dear readers! May the year be better than the previous one we had.

Love,

SS

The Gift

When I was having a rough patch in my life, god has given me someone amazing to help me went through it. The gift was temporary but I cheerish every moments given. Because of you, I was smiling again. I myself never knew that in such short time, someone who was a stranger at first can suddenly mean something to me. I thank god for giving me the chance to know you and to feel the happiness. I learned a lot from what we have. The good and the bad. The love and the pain. Yes it was temporary. But yet, I have nothing to regret because I savor all the time and the things we do. Nothing would make me happier if it last longer. But if this is what fated for me, I'll try to take it. Thank you Allah and thank you dear for giving me something so beautiful to remember.

Love,
S

Study Week

If you ask me what I think about study week, my answer would be this one word. Horror! I have to take 5 papers this semester so I have been studying my eyeballs off this past few weeks. Skipping meals has become a norm and I keep on stuffing my bladder with more and more coffee every single day to keep my eyes awake. Oh how I really miss sleeping all day. Sigh. I have done 2 papers so I still have 3 more to go. I can't wait for the exams to be over and I keep telling my friend that I would definitely do a chicken dance after the last paper. Haha. Ok cut the long crap. Guys, wish me luck okay. I need it so bad!

Love,
S

Mom you are my number one!

I guess this is the second time I posted song lyrics on my blog. I am not a fan of Maher Zain's songs before but this one really touched my heart that I cried listening to it. It is a song for a mother. Oh how I miss my mom. I am so busy and it has been more than a month since I last went home ):

Anyway, I'm sorry I don't know how to attach the video but here's the lyrics. So beautiful.

NUMBER ONE FOR ME by Maher Zain.

I was a foolish little child

Crazy things I used to do
And all the pain I put you through
Mama now I’m here for you
For all the times I made you cry
The days I told you lies
Now it’s time for you to rise
For all the things you sacrificed

Chorus:
Oh, if I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone
I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mum I’m all grown up now

It’s a brand new day
I’d like to put a smile on your face every day
Mum I’m all grown up now
And it’s not too late
I’d like to put a smile on your face every day

And now I finally understand
Your famous line
About the day I’d face in time
‘Cause now I’ve got a child of mine
And even though I was so bad
I’ve learned so much from you
Now I’m trying to do it too
Love my kid the way you do

CHORUS

You know you are the number one for me (x3)
Oh, oh, number one for me
There’s no one in this world that can take your place
Oh, I’m sorry for ever taking you for granted, ooh
I will use every chance I get
To make you smile, whenever I’m around you
Now I will try to love you like you love me
Only God knows how much you mean to me

CHORUS

You know you are the number one for me (x3)

Oh, oh, number one for me

I was a foolish little child
Crazy things I used to do
And all the pain I put you through
Mama now I’m here for you
For all the times I made you cry
The days I told you lies
Now it’s time for you to rise
For all the things you sacrificed

Chorus:
Oh, if I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone
I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mum I’m all grown up now

It’s a brand new day
I’d like to put a smile on your face every day
Mum I’m all grown up now
And it’s not too late
I’d like to put a smile on your face every day

And now I finally understand
Your famous line
About the day I’d face in time
‘Cause now I’ve got a child of mine
And even though I was so bad
I’ve learned so much from you
Now I’m trying to do it too
Love my kid the way you do

CHORUS

You know you are the number one for me (x3)
Oh, oh, number one for me
There’s no one in this world that can take your place
Oh, I’m sorry for ever taking you for granted, ooh
I will use every chance I get
To make you smile, whenever I’m around you
Now I will try to love you like you love me
Only God knows how much you mean to me

CHORUS

You know you are the number one for me (x3)

Oh, oh, number one for me

Love,

S

Tests and Trust

The last time I wrote was last year. That was way too long, no? I’m not going to give any excuses though. The thing is I didn’t write to please the crowd. So I am going to write whenever I had the chance and when I feel like it, okay? Cheers :D

In the last few months when I was in hiatus, so many things happened. Some of them were good, but some of them were unbearable. I’ve been going through some hard times, and that was one of the reason why I didn’t write here. The blog is public and I chose not to spread the private story of my life to the world. So as a substitute, I’ve been really close with my diary these days. I can just spill everything without having to ponder about what to write and what not to write. But that doesn’t mean I am going to shut my blog down. The blog keeps my 3 years memories and will still be counting.

Anyway, this year has been hard for me. God tested me in so many ways I couldn’t even recall when was the last time I had a good time. During those times, there were my brother’s wedding, a vacation with my family, and so many things went around. I might looked happy outside, ok, I do feel happy here and then, but at the same time, deep inside, there were always a lump in my throat, sadness in my heart.

During those hard times, I realize that one of the way to be at ease is by turning to Him. I am not a good person and I admit that sometimes I slightly forget about Him. But the hard times I’m facing made me realize that no matter what happen, good or bad, there’s only Him that will always be by my side. I keep reminding myself that Allah will always be available, and His guidance will help me to endure hardship, and make sufferings bearable.

I am still having a hard time now so I keep praying to Him to show me the best way. I talked to so many people, my family and my friends, seeking for their advice and opinions. But deep inside, I know that things happen only when god allows it so at the end of the day, I will turn to Him, ask for His guidance.

I do realize that my pain is nothing compared to other people. Well, at least I’m not facing hunger or death. I am in good health and I have my family and my friends. So I will try as much as possible to be positive. I am still young, and if god wills it, I still have a long road ahead. I do realize that there will be ups and down, thick and thin along the way, so I hope I will be one strong girl to face it. InsyaAllah.

Love,
S

Help me decide

A friend of mine gave me these last two weeks. I was so excited because besides food, books are what I love most!. Unfortunately, I had to resist the temptations since the assignments are piling up last few weeks and I was super busy. Now that I am free, I am going to read one of them. So help me choose. Which one to read first?


"Miss a meal if you have to, but don't miss a book!"
-Jim Rohn-

Love,
S